Hey guys..


sorry it's been awhile,but hey..gotta turn up sometime..

Listen up guys, and I really mean this!!;

I might get rid of a few characters..plus im comming down with something thats deadly..and im sitting here with my laptop in bed. This years Christmas for me is going down hill because I lost my job and my mom is now not giving a ... crap for me again like the past because her boyfriend dumpped her for being mean to me. I'm probably going to get 2 presents this year for Christmas again, but im thankful for them even if they are a pare of socks. I'm just feeling down right now and im sorry if im being moody and making you feel like Im trying to avoid you. I deserve alot of things done to me...I feel like crap...Im in bed, not helping my family out laying down like a big fat piece of crap that doest give a crap about anything and everybody is happy if I die. I lost hope, and I can't get it back. Im just a... sack of peanuts sitting in the stands waiting until someone picks me up and throws me away right after the ballgame. Plus, I might leave DA and I MEAN THIS!! If anyone can change my mind with 5 good reasons then I MIGHT reconsider. I really dont deserve friends..I just make them worried and stressed out.

Maybe peopel are right, Maybe I am Emo....If I am...kill me now ..

Wishing to be Dead,
Shaneko Xiao